— Sometimes we talk about that something is missing, something is lacking — something which is starting this, so to speak, search to find an alternative way of living, to have more joy in life, to enjoy life, to have peace whatever happens.

We can talk about this in terms of something is missing, feeling that something is not right here. What do we mean by this missing?

Well, it’s easy to misunderstand this. Does “missing” mean that there is something wrong with me? It can sometimes be that interpretation. Something is missing here, so there must be something wrong with me then. So “missing” is interpreted as some kind of psychological issue. That something needs to be fixed. I have to go to therapy because something is missing here. Or find some other way to fix me, because something is missing, and it’s obviously about me.

Is this true? This feeling of missing something — is this really a psychological thing? No. This puts so much pressure on ourselves, if we interpret this feeling of missing as “something is wrong with me”. There is nothing wrong with us at all. Never has been.

So what is this missing then? Because we have the feeling that something is missing. That’s why we start the search, and that’s why we come to this kind of meetings and start to meditate, or whatever it is.
Maybe something is wrong with life? — if we go to philosophy. Maybe I’ve been doing something wrong in my past life? — if we go into that idea. Maybe I have a bad karma, or original sin, or whatever the belief is… Or maybe life is just struggle and suffering — that is what life is? So we go into philosophy, trying to explain this feeling of missing something, which is starting the search.
Is this true? Is this explanation from philosophy — the right way? No. Life is not supposed to be suffering. Life is supposed to be enjoyed.

So what is this missing then? Because we obviously (most of us) have this feeling that something is missing — when everything is starting in this so-called searching.

Well, seeing it from the top of the mountain, so to speak, seeing it from the truth, — the missing is not psychological. The missing is not philosophical. It’s not about life.

The missing is coming from the truth itself.

This can be a little bit surprising at first. What does it mean — the missing is coming from the truth itself?

Year, the missing feeling that something is wrong here, that something is missing — it’s a signal from the truth inside us, knocking from the inside, that something is not entirely correct here. Some kind of misunderstanding is here. And that makes us suffer, struggle, having problems all the time that need to be solved by some kind of “me”, fixing.

So the missing is something good. It is not something which is negative. It is actually something very good, because it means that the truth in ourselves is trying to break through. It is trying to show us that life is not what you think it is. Life is pure love and bliss, lived in peace, enjoying what happens in the moment, permeated by love.

That is clothed — so to speak “clothed” — in the feeling of something missing. But is this true that something is missing?

What is missing is that we don’t live from the level of the truth, from the level of the enlightenment state. We are living from the level of suffering, from struggling, and from total misunderstandings about life. We are living in the belief system: “I have to fix, I must, I’m not good enough,” and so on, and so on.

I just wanted to mention this, that this missing idea is very often mixed with “something is wrong with me”. There is nothing wrong with you. It is the truth signaling that something is missing here. And that “something” is to live in the freedom state. So it starts the discovery, the missing itself is a starting point. An initialization of this is to discover what is actually true here.

And the truth is that you are already living in the enlightened state. You just need to take away the obstacle of not seeing that.

So the missing, instead of interpreting it as “something wrong with me” or “something wrong with life”, is actually mirroring the truth. It is actually the truth which has put the feeling of missing inside us, knocking from the inside, so that we can start to discover how it really is.

But heaven is not on the other side. Heaven is already here. But we are living in hell. It’s also already here.

So the missing is actually something good. We shouldn’t look at it as at something negative. But instead to go for what is missing and discover what is missing. To remove the obstacles and see how it is. And to live life in total contentment.

I mention this today because sometimes I meet these ideas which are pushing us down: “Something is missing, so something must be wrong with me,” or “Something is wrong with life”. I hope this can clear up a little bit this misunderstanding — what this missing feeling is actually giving a signal of.

And now I’m open up for questions here. Or any comments, or any discussions, or any protests? Are you all in samadhi already?... Congratulations!... Any other questions about any other topics for today?

F: — Hey, Christer
C: — Hi Fritz, nice to see you
F: — Yeah, good to see you, man. So, you’re familiar with my background, we’ve talked lots of times. And for people who’ve experienced, let’s say, an enlightenment experience — and I’m in that category, it happened quite a while ago, but nonetheless it wasn’t something that was expected, so it wasn’t mind-generated.
But once it apparently left — which at one point it did — that was a pretty obvious missing. And I think for people who’ve had that kind of experience, it is pretty obvious. So that is one way it can be recognized, but obviously there are a lot of others.
So that’s the only comment I had to make. And if you would like to say something about that, yeah, it would be good.

C: — Yeah, thank you, thank you. Missing can be a lot of things. Of course, it can be a lot of things, I mean a lot of aspects of this concept of “missing”. Here we are just focusing on one particular aspect. And that is the missing feeling that started the whole thing.

But of course, if we have had glimpses of this “true state” — how we can call it maybe — and then it is taken away from us, of course there is a missing of that also. But isn’t it the same missing, actually? Because it is the truth which is giving us the missing feeling first, to start the search.

And in your case that started first probably, before that experience or this insight came that you talked about. And then there is the next missing — missing that what actually came as a beautiful insight and a beautiful experience. But it is the same. It is the same missing, just showing itself in two different ways. Is that ok to see it in that way?

It’s actually the same missing. We are missing the true life. We are missing to live in what is really the case, not what we think it is. But it’s beautiful that you gave another aspect of this also. Even if they are a little bit twins here. Is it ok, Fritz?
F: — Year, it’s fine, thank you
C: — Thank you!

So, Anders, you have a commentary here like “I have a schedule to do what I really want later, after that and after that”. Year, you could say like that — the schedule is coming from the truth. The truth has a schedule for us. And it gives us signals that maybe you should look at the schedule, not only postpone it all the time, but look at it, what it says. What does it say on the calendar today? Oh, it says “See the truth.” Okay… to discover the truth, today? “Even not today — now, because it’s here already”.

But of course, the schedule is a little bit about “later and later”. But the missing is not so easy to just put off. I mean we can have a feeling of missing — I know exactly what you’re talking about I think, because when it happened to me when I was 14, then I knew that I was missing something from that day when it went away, a couple of weeks later. And I knew that I had to get it back, so to speak, to discover that place, the living from that place. And that took some time, to say the least… But the missing was there from the very beginning.

But the missing has some kind of fuel in it, because the missing in itself means that we want something (so to speak “we want”). There is a direction towards something which is not a material standard or something — all kinds of things in the story — but actually something much deeper. We want to know how it is to live in full contentment, because that is what we did in these glimpses, for instance what Fritz talked about, and which I also referred to, when I was 14. We know how it is, actually. But then the ice-cream was taken away from us. After been leaking on it for some time: “Oh, it’s fantastic!” And then — oh… And of course you want it back, right?

So the missing in itself has a fuel in it, which is good. That’s why I want to focus on it today by saying it is actually something good, it’s not something we should look at in a negative way.

C: — Yes, Anders?
A: — Yes… it’s like I have to come into this state like I did now here, doing this meditation with this enlightenment help. But I have some very concrete things I would like to fulfill in my life. I postpone it also because I feel that this enlightenment state is more important than stressing in the outer world in order to practically fulfill my desires, because there is so much to do before I can reach this outer goal. But I feel this inner contentment is so much more important. But it was interesting what you were talking about. Living in this state all the time, I mean independently of what you are doing – that is the next stage…

C: — It’s already here, Anders, it’s already here
A: — Year, I know, I know
C: — Just needs to remove the obstacles for not seeing it. That is what we do, as you know
A: — Year, very exciting. Very good is that task you gave us — writing down the thoughts that are coming up about ourselves
C: — Year, it’s one of the tools we are using
A: — Yes, thank you
C: — Thank you very much for this commentary

And it’s not only that we now understand more clearly to not see this missing feeling as something negative about ourselves or life. But to see that it also actually has a positive side. There is a positive energy coming from it. To see: “Okay… This is actually the truth doing the job here. The truth is putting this missing feeling in me, so that I can discover how it really is and start to live from true life, true state”.

And the true state is not about truth in heaven — we are not talking about religion here. The true state means what is true in your particular life. What is true about you.

Anything else?

So, okay — we see each other tomorrow then

Thank you for now